The Agony of Loving You

The Agony of Loving You by Melody Pabz

     I wish I could wake up in the morning and your face is not the first thing I see. There is a part of me that always wishes I am the girl you love. When I start to feel this way, I began to hate myself. I feel angry for getting into this situation. After all, it’s my fault. I can’t keep myself from getting hurt.

     I pretend that I don’t love you. I cannot bear the thoughts that my happiness depends on you. I conceal my emotion everytime I see the two of you. Your touch seems painful to me because I know that I am a real waste of space in your world.

     The game of love is unkind. My sufferings have been very serious. This is the most cruel affliction. I feel distress beyond anything I had ever felt before. I am in silent agony. I mourn in secrecy and no one will see my private heartaches…